Yesterday, Friday the 13th, was a day of mixed fortunes. I got a lot done, but my computer has once again started playing up denying me access to some important pieces of work that are needed urgently... But just before that happened, in the afternoon I took a walk after a late lunch when I had been reading Robert Graves' treatment of Orpheus and Eurydice. Then, as I usually do when walking, I was listening to a couple of short podcasts, including one of Pádraig Ó Tuama's superb "Poetry Unbound" podcasts where he was unpacking Natalie Diaz's poem "Of Course She Looked Back" about Lot's wife. But on "my loop", which took me down by the Lagan, I also caught sight of a woman rowing and had a fleeting encounter with another woman who had just had a prang on the Malone Road. In the hours that followed, as I became hypnotised by the rotating blue circle of doom on my computer, and then this morning, waking early aware of all that I still needed to get done because of the computer glitch, but frustrated by the technological gremlins, these stories got mixed up in my head... and this long rambling piece is the result... It requires a lot more work... but I'll come back to it again...
An unknown woman on the water,
Strong long back and legs
Folding and unfolding
Like bellows, breathing
The thick autumn air;
Facing backwards
but forging her way forwards
Against the river’s flow.
Is she solo because she wants it so
Or because it is decreed that
She must be separated
And so cannot share a boat
With her sisters;
Her unseen destination.
In her oar-wielding hands alone?
Lot’s unnamed wife on the road
Lot’s unnamed wife on the road
Perhaps bearing her belongings
On her own strong back,
Nostrils and lungs filled
With Sodom’s sulphurous smoke.
It was decreed that the city be destroyed
And that they should not look back
But she does look backwards to the dying city
With the Dead Sea beyond;
To a place of brutal men,
A place unwelcoming to strangers,
Unreceptive to uncomfortable messages,
And the messengers who bring them,
A place of proverbial evil,
But a place that was her home.
So was her proverbial petrification
A punishment from a present tense God
For dwelling, not in a sinful city
But in the past,
Or because of a surfeit of salt tears
Shed for other unnamed wives
And daughters and mothers
Their destinies taken out of their hands.
Eurydice, named wife of Orpheus
Eurydice, named wife of Orpheus
but no longer so well known
Her name sitting awkwardly
On modern tongue.
Another victim of a backward glance
A double victim of male decisions;
Of the lust of one
And the impatience of another.
Yet much though she may have loved
The latter and he she,
Did she really want to leave
Her place in the shadows?
Or was she simply subject
To her husband’s hopes
And the decrees of Dis?
Was the singer’s premature peek
A source of sorrow or relief?
Yet even after her second demise,
And descent to the depths,
Like many others in death,
Her life is not her own
But sung of by her husband
And told of by poets and playwrights
Who never knew her
Except in their imaginations.
One final, other, unknown woman
One final, other, unknown woman
Standing on a street corner,
Not in any seductive way,
Because such things do not happen
In this part of this city,
But awaiting assistance
Following an accident.
If only the other driver
Had looked backwards,
Not just in their mirror
Like the mythic hero slaying
Yet another accursed woman,
But over their shoulder
They would not have collided
Before driving on
Oblivious, or evading responsibility.
An offer of help is refused,
With a smile, so perhaps
It was not because
I am an unknown man
In the gathering gloom
Of an inauspicious afternoon.
One day, four women
One day, four women
Interwoven in my mind
Their stories, read, listened to
Imagined, intersected with
If only briefly, tangentially
Their names, save one, unknown
All, far too quickly, reduced
To myth, to metaphor.
Selah
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